There's so much going on lately, and I just can't seem to get a grip on life.
We watched a movie in AP Environmental Science today where these little larvae things who lived in the ocean had to latch on to the rocks below to grip themselves against the currents of the ocean. If they didn't get a good grip, they had a backup line to help them get back to their postition. However, the moment that line broke, they were swept away into the dark abyss of the ocean floor....
I am a larvae. As cheesy, as corny, as it may sound, I am that fragile little sea creature. In a world of silly stresses, I have given up. I can't fight the current any longer, and this week I am tethering along on my string of last resort, fighting for one more chance to get things right. But no matter how hard I paddle or push, my body keeps getting flung backwards towards the opposing end of my goal...in the end, I'm always at square one.
Its a mixture of things. I have to have a coronation date by Wednesday because mine can't go, calculus is starting to kick my butt, I am working TWO jobs Thanksgiving week (yes, even on the dreaded day after Thanksgiving), my friendship with someone is on the line...oh yeah, and I'm starting to fall for a guy who has no interest in me whatsoever. The list goes on, all of my issues as dumb and immature as the one's forementioned, yet even with my knowledge of their insignificance in my life, even knowing how silly these problems are, even knowing that there are bigger issues I need to care for...I CAN'T SEEM TO WIN THE BATTLE.
As time continues to move too quickly, as my work piles up and my emotions are drained, its clear that everything I need is out of reach. With all of these things acting as my current, the only lifeline I have left is slowly starting to break. Piece by piece, inch by inch, its slow and steady fraying is leaving me alone to fight the battle I can't win....
Trying to catch up, but falling farther behind...
Deneece
aka Lostie108
1 comment:
:-(
I just wrote this amazingly inspiratic (shut up, I know it's not a word) about how I have faith in you and I know you can make it if you keep faith in yourself and that if I were there and not working on a four-week Engineering project, I would be your coronation date, but I lost it all, so here's the summary. Not quite as beautifully worded, but hey, I tried. :-)
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