Simply Wondering.

I woke up this morning with a heavy heart and an even heavier mind, so this post is not going to be of any happy manner. Be forewarned that the sarcastic banter, the witty analysis, and all other common aspects of my posts are to be discarded for today only. There is something more important to write. All I ask is that you, whoever you may be, will read this and consider it in your thoughts throughout your day.

Yesterday, a friend of mine commited suicide. Unfortunately, he was not the first of my friends to pass away this year. In fact, our high school has lost 8 students in the last year to cruel consequence. To drunk drivers, to common mistakes, and now to their own self judgement. Many, if not all, of these kids were my friends. My classmates. My next door neighbor. All were happy, healthy, strong willed, opinionated, passionate kids who always encouraged me to stand up for what I believed in and (most importantly) for myself.

I sit here telling you this, not for sympathy, but for warning. At a mere 17, 18, 19 years, their lives ended. Im heartbroken at the realization that such vibrant youth, such strong character, can be crushed in so little time, in one tragic moment. I know that death is common, but there is a difference between being common and being overbearingly present in one's life. I guess our whole community is having to struggle with that concept right now...

All I ask of you is that you pray for these kids, these families; theyve been torn apart by fate, their own existence slowly drowning in their own tears of grief. I have had to mature too much over this past year, but yesterday was the breaking point. I have felt pain like many are lucky to never have felt, and still I'm trying to move on and grow, even though a little piece of my heart keeps getting left behind.

Just be careful out there in that cold place they call "The Real World". It has no mercy.

Deneece
aka Lostie108